Thursday, November 25, 2010
Black And White
To me, the world is black and white.
There is no grey.
There are no shadows.
Not in my world.
In my world, everything is crystal clear.
After a lifetime of people telling me that I need to learn to see the grey, I'm ready to accept that it just doesn't exist in my world.
I wonder if I see things differently, or if others just hide this same feeling. Maybe you could tell me. Here's how my world works:
Something is either right or wrong. There is no in between.
If someone does something right - fantastic. If they do something wrong, they need to be told. If I do something wrong, I want to be told. How else can I understand that I've hurt someone? How else can I make myself a better person who doesn't make the same mistake again?
In my world, there are no excuses.
I hear this phrase a lot: 'Oh, that's just [insert name here]. That's what she/he does.' Well, when that 'thing they do' is lying or treating others badly, that's not acceptable to me.
If it's right, it's right. If it's wrong, it's wrong.
White or black.
I take no notice of ranks or titles. Everyone deserves the same treatment.
I don't care who you are, whether you think you are more important than someone else. In my world, you're not. In my world, you're another person who deserves to be treated well, just like the next person.
I expect the best from people. When I say that, I mean I expect people to be polite, respectful and do the right thing by others. I don't just want that; I expect it.
I have high expectations of myself and everyone around me.
And when my expectations aren't met, my world comes crashing down around my feet.
When people act in a way I think is wrong - whether it's to me or to someone else - I fall. I begin to doubt my world. I want to hide from it, to run away.
I take it hard.
That's when people tell me to relax, to not let things bother me, to ignore it. I say, no. I say, this is me. I feel like I have been let down and I really feel that.
I want to tell that person they are in the wrong. I want other people to stand up and tell that person, too. Some call it confrontational. I say, it's only considered confrontation because it's avoided by so many people. If they didn't avoid it, it would just be called talking. Communication does not equal confrontation.
I say, stop ignoring things, stop being so bloody blase about everything. Start to care. Start to expect more from the world. Come into my world.
Then, I see someone do the right thing, and I know it's okay. I'm happy.
I want to live in my world again.
Black and white. There is nothing in between.
Posted at 3:24 PM